semate mate

... :(..."semate mate??"..sbnr nye aku pn xtw nak letak title ape kt sini..tp..mendalam maksud disebalik perkataan semate mate aku 2..sebenarnye ape yg "die" maksudkn xkn kecewakn aku lg??aku pn xphm sebenarnye..or dye ckp mcm 2 semate mate nak suruh sume org ingat yg ktorg dah ok..padahal??hmm...wlupun smpai skng, hati aku tetap kecewa and sedih sgt2..mane x nye, dye cakap nak call aku, tapi dah bape malam aku tunggu, xde pn terime call dari dye..2 yg buat aku kecewe sgt..lg 1, kenape dye xbole topup tuk call and mecej dengan aku??bile pikir2 balik, aku rase cm tertipu..xlogik berminggu2 dye xtopup..hmm..kenapa ye dye still layan aku cmni..aku dah bagi peluang kt dye.tapi dye tetap kecewa kan aku..mungkin dye xnampak and xperasan yg dye layan aku mcm ni..hmmm..ni ke tande2 yg sayang dye kt aku dah berkurangan???(question mark)..hanye dengan kehadiran sorang pompuan yg dye baru kenal, sanggup dye biarkan diri aku ni yg dah bertahun2 kitorang idop bersama..cdey nye..dugaan2..walau cmne pn aku kne kuat tuk hadapi sume ni..insyaAllah aku bole...kadang tu aku terpikir, mungkin jalan terbaik tuk aku adalah tarik diri..tapi..arrrggghhhh..tidakk..aku xdapat nak terima cz saket sgt2 bile cinte dan kasih sayang yg aku bagi xdihargai..sedangkan aku cukup ikhlas dlm menyayangi dye..huhu...!!!..dah cuya, jangan cdey2..bende ni sume xlame..aku yakin dengan diri aku, one day nanti aku akan bahagia jugak dengan org yg betul2 sygkn aku n aku pn syg dye..haha..geli nye aku..jiwang lak dah..

mainan @ ugutan??

hey..ko rase bgs sgt ke nak ugut aku dgn care cmni..aku tw la aku ni lemah, tp ko xyh lah nak ambek kesempatan atas kelemahan aku ni..dah la 2, aku takut..ko phm x??tlg jgn ggu aku lg..ni keluhan seorang insan lemah yang bernama cuya ardila..
actually, lately aku ase cam xselamat..tp aku bt2 mcm xde pape cz aku xnk bermain ng emosi aku sgt..aku dah xtw cmne nak lari dri sume ni..patut ke aku juz biakn ataupn aku xbole lps tgn cm2 je..ni soal idop dan mati..klu aku lepas tgn dan biakan cm2 je, mgkn akn ade org yg t'luke n t'seksa..n kmgknan besa, akn ilang nyawa..tp..klu aku teruskn dan xlepas tgn, kemgkinan aku yg akn ilang nyawa..Ya Allah, bg la petunjuk kepada ku..kuatkan semangat dan peganganku Ya Allah..lembutkan la hati2 mereka yg berniat jahat terhadap aku..ni antare dialog between aku dgn lelaki misteri 2..
"L: he is scary person...if u frenz wth him.don't cheat him...actually he not like girls...
mE: scary???what do u mean by he is scary??n he not like girls??n how im going to trust u..even i neva2 know u...
L: better u ask him by urself...be4 this no girls verge wth him..
mE: huhh...i'v already do dat...u unable 2 give me an answer..same wif him...hmm..plz la...jgn wt i tertanye2...
L: really?im not believed it...if u verge wth him n he like u...u can not run frm him...dia kaki pukul...
mE: oo..mksd nye u ni mmg btl2 knl dye la???so..ape hubungan antre u ng dye???fren???girlfren???adk??kkak??haa???
L: frenz..n i'm male..not female..sori k..don't tell him..if u trust me.. i'll tell u everything..
mE: bla...bla..bla....
Next Day.....
L: hw r u???
actually he is bandit person...u must know that..u like him?
mE: nope..
L: u must not worried about him becoz u not like him...my advise,if u not like him..plz hated him..always hate him,,
mE: i'll neva hated him..b'cz he is my fren
L: u must avoid from him...becz my group want him...if u always wth him,u will in trouble
mE: ur group??so..explen 2 me...n hw dare u 2 say dat i will in trouble!!!
L: he is bold person..n also lover person..my group want him..becz of some business..if my group have him,we can do anything
mE: okeyh...enuff..i will go
L: he change becz of u..he can influence many people in my place..i just use him n i get benefit..from..illegal racing..he is one of the top 5 racer..after contunued study at degrre level,he change..many frenz ask him,,just one answer he said..he said hitler down becoz of girls..n he never want to race becoz of u..he likes u so much..but u??...that y i tell u,if u dont like him,,plez avoid from him..plez..he will go to prison..he will die..he want to die becz of u..i like it if he die immedietly..i dont want to do that..but becz of want rich in easy way..thats y i just gunakan dia..n bla..bla..bla...'

...pending...aku xtw da cmne nak bt skng ni..aku dah xmampu nak pk ape..klu aku cube elak dari dye, dye mgkin akn bt bnde2 bodoh cmni..tp klu aku xelak dari dye, mgkin aku dlm bahaye..Ya Allah..knpe jdi cmni..besar btl dugaan ini..sblm bertindak aku t'pakse b'pk akn byk pihak..plezz..help me..

raye 2010

hello there..soryla..da lme xupdate blog..so, xde entry baru..msti u ol bsn kn..so..im really sory k..huhu..kt sini aku stat smule..so..aku juz na upload pic raye yg da genap sebulan syawal ni..huhu..tp xbyk pics lol..sume dlm kamera kwn..xtransfer lg...ni je yg smpt ade..huhu





haa...ni la pic raye aku..tuu aku yg pkai bju itam bertudungkan pink ke purple lan..haha..rosak bhse mlayu..actually ni gmbr dgn family boyfren aku..except laki yg bru biru 2 je, my beluv bro wouu...hepy kn fmly dorg..mksd aku kt cni, besar kn..huhu..hey korg, i luv u so much even bkn fmly aku pn, tp syg aku kt dorg lbh drpd 2..tyme ni bf aku xde.sbb..xbgn tdo lg..b'tuah pnye bdk.org cebok braye tp dye tdo lak..ape na jd da..haha..btw, slamat ari raye aidilfitri